| it's amazing how big of a role the weather plays in your mood for the day. i always find that on rainy days, it is much harder for me to have a good day. when the sun is out, there is just something warm and serene about that. but when it is raining, it's just kind of depressing and sad. it has been raining all day and i am ready for the sun to come out! maybe tomorrow will be a better day and we will be blessed with some sunshine. over the weekend, i had a retreat with my haiti team. some of you may not know, but i am going to haiti for a week in january! i am both excited and nervous. however, being at the retreat made me even more excited. we talked about some things that we may be doing in haiti. we may have an opportunity to go to an orphanage for handicapped children. we were told that before this orphanage was started, they would be handicapped children in this back room and would not feed them. therefore, they would basically be left there to die. we also found out that we may have a chance to go to a home for the dying. i cannot wait to see what God has planned for our group. i think that amazing things will be done. however, i do not just want this trip to impact me, i want it to transform me. we were talking about this at one of our team meetings. we were talking about how usually we are impacted by things but that impact does not last forever. it eventually fades away. however, if you are transformed, it is a change in lifestyle. a couple weeks ago, i watched a video about haiti at a meeting. it was so touching. all that kept popping out at me was the fact that these people are so happy, yet they have nothing. i always find myself wanting more, i'm never content with what i have...there's always more to want. however, the people in haiti did not have much but they were not asking for much. at the retreat, we found out that there could be a possibility that the week before our trip, it could be cancelled because they may think that it is too dangerous to go to haiti. never would i have imagined that i would be taking a trip to haiti. it just always seemed like such a scary place to me. it's now like my whole attitude toward haiti has changed. when i heard that we may find out that we may be relocated, i was sad and disappointed. i found myself thinking that i really want to go to haiti and feel as if i should be going to haiti. if my team ends up being relocated, i know this will not be last time i will have tried to go. i think that i will keep trying until i actually have the opportunity to go. |
